Deirdre St John
pov: i’ve missed writing on here.
there is really no excuse for why i’ve been gone. i could give you a bunch of reasons, but it will always come back to the truth:
i lost my love for writing.
it’s so crazy when you lose something you are passionate about and it scared me because i didn’t know if i was going to get it back.
i was in a funk with writing my book and making content for you guys that i just didn’t want to do it anymore.
so, i gave it up.
and for what? to keep my 8 to 3 teaching job when i know it’s not what i am truly meant to do?
i was lost. so so lost.
i thought i failed because my blog wasn‘t a big success or because i wasn’t able to get a job in the communication or journalism field.
but then i realized, how could i have been successful when i didn’t even try?
i didn’t promote my blog as much as i should of.
i didn’t promote my book as much as i should of.
i stopped looking for jobs in my field because of rejection.
and i just gave up on me. because i thought i couldn’t do it.
what i didn’t realize was, if i don’t believe in myself then how is someone else going to believe in me?
if writing was truly my dream, my passion, then why did i give it up?
failure to succeed.
i want to prove to myself and to you all that i can do this and i will.
i am going to pick up my confidence off the cold, hard, ground and i am going to show the communication, journalism field what they’ve been missing.
and i am going to finish my romance novel.
because this is what i am truly destined to do in this world.
i can do this.
xo deirdre 🤍